Hmm… It’s really complicated in our family. Mum is a Catholic and goes to church every Sunday. Dad says he doesn’t believe in anything, that he’s an atheist. Luckily they tolerate each other.
Me, I’m just mixed up. I’m baptised, like Mum, but I don’t consider myself a Catholic. I think I’m somewhere in between Mum and Dad, neither an atheist nor a Catholic. Once in a while I go to church, but I regard it more as a place for contemplation. Luckily Mum doesn’t drag me to church, maybe thanks to Dad. She says it is a personal matter for everyone. At the same time I’m not really drawn to Dad’s atheism, because in my experience people who have some kind of belief are better people …
I’m interested in other religions and philosophies. For six months I went to tai chi lessons and it loosened me up incredibly. Then I tried yoga and went to a few lectures on Buddhism. I had a great chat with Suong, who’s got her Buddhism first hand. Recently I read an interesting book on the basics of Taoism. It appealed to me. If I put all of this together, then ok, maybe I’m a believer, but I perceive faith somewhat differently than my Mum, for instance. I don’t think that I should have to go to church every week (I go when I want to). I believe in something, but I don’t know what yet, I’m still looking. |